The long conference table was full of drinks, notebooks, buzzing cell phones, tubes of chap stick and napkins with cookie crumbs. A different woman sat in front of each microworld of her own creation. Some had a place at the table for years, others only months. There was no cohesion between the co-workers, they were better termed as workers in the same agency rather than teammates or colleagues.
Another client had just been reviewed. Opinions about how to move clients forward or out of the program were tossed about as carelessly as the meeting had been planned and executed. The tension kept everyone on edge, outbursts and barely veiled insults took the place of constructive feedback or actual planning. This was all normal for a Wednesday.
One woman, a graduate-of-the-program-turned-employee-human-behavior-expert, ran her long black nails through her jet-black bangs, over and over. Someone had just suggested the use of empathy and another chance in making a major life change.
Staring up towards the ceiling as though summoning strength from her higher power, she declared, “Y’all don’t know sh*t about sh*t.”
And since that time, I have surrendered to this new understanding. I don’t know anything about anything. Everything is new and amazing with this perspective, especially all the potential job listings, as I also reached the realization that this unique environment is not the place for me.
Toxic workplaces wreck lives and take your health. I hope you’re able to find a new role in an organization with a healthy environment.
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Thank you! We share the same hope. Fingers crossed for an easy job search.
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Like Popeye said, “ I can’t takes no more”. You just hit the tipping point. Time to squish a can of spinach straight into your mouth.
This is not the first time I have heard about a poorly run agency especially in healthcare. Don’t stop believing that one person can make a difference. But for now another mode of making a buck should be investigated. You are doing a great job.
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Wow, that really hits home. Thanks for your kind words- they made me a little weepy.
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