I am deeply saddened by the recent decision of the Supreme Court to overturn Roe V. Wade. If I were to leave the house, I would wear black, but I am too sad to be in public.
Although it was a known possibility, it felt as a shocking as a slap across the face when the news broke. It was impossible for my eyes not to water, to not feel a sense of powerlessness and even humiliation at being so unheard and unvalued as a person able to make decisions about my body.
I am in mourning for myself, women around the country and the girls who are to follow behind us who will suffer at the hands of their individual states.
Soon, anger will set in and with it the energy to do something more than post on my blog (anonymously) or complain to my friends (two) or mope on the couch next to my husband.
For now, I will feel the feelings and later prepare for the fight.